Days of Our Life

it seems to me that life for me has made a merry-gone-round.

ten years ago i had graduated with A Levels and was job searching.
now, with that many years of working, im searching for my ideal again.

i shouldnt be talking about so called those bad-days or bad-times but anyway i wanna talk about it cos it is really funny. many times people dont understand why i say this or that is funny. they ask me what's so funny or how is it funny. most of the time, my funny is in an ironic way funny or depressingly funny. whatever ways, it is funny alright. so ya, there was a time in 1994 where i was desperately seeking susan-,, the ideal job. during those days, you write-in, type written cover letter, resume with your bio-data and all. also during those days, there were a handful of recruitment agencies that would match you an employer. so anyway, i was saying,, it was one depressing time where i would comb the recruitment papers and call for interview appointments. i think i must have been either too choosy or too uncertain or too non-condfident, i just remember that i didnt have a job for many moons. each day was a drag and night became day and day was also day. you see, there was this fantastic soap opera entittled "Days of Our Life". it is the equivelent of "Ah Chen"-- the Taiwanese version of soap opera. whatever the case, these type of soap operas have this supernatural power to make you a mindless addict. i was oh,, so damned hooked on it. the show will be on from like 1am to 4am or something, then i'll go to bed all zoonked out and wake up at 2.30pm to watch the same episode that was shown in the morning all over again. by the time im done, it's evening, which means just a few hours to feel depressed or make a few phone calls and then be sleepless and watch the next episode till 4 in the morning again. the most fasinating thing about it is that i dont follow the show at all. i dont know who's who in the show, just that there is this dark haired pretty lady who was ill-fatedly out of love and there were many plotting against each other in the show. this went on for months and months until i almost died. died of lathargy that is. that kind of show is such that if you miss a hundred episodes, you still wont miss much of the plot really. so how could i be watching it over and over on the double, day and night and night and day. no wonder they say some programmes make you dumb. i totally agree.

so,, that was the days of my life then.

fast forward 3650 days.

these days im combing the recruit papers again, without anxiety and worry. calmness comes with age/experience. let's just say that im calmer this time. funny nothing much have changed in the recruits. there are still many con jobs out there. those that promise free lunches,, you know what i mean. albeit 65% percent of the jobs out there requires a degree holder of some sort. 5% states MBA. of course with relevant experience is an advantage, the AD says. market is soft, im no kidding you, market is soft but there are still good jobs out there. the only thing is that you've got to be patient and at the same time, be active. i've sent out 15 resumes and 3 asked to interview me. so, there is hope and there are good jobs, you just got to put yourself out there. i'll give you more updates after this week ok? meantime, i welcome prayers and i thank you all for silent and vocal encouragement.